My husband and I are undertaking some scary stuff right now. First up, we're hosting our very first "life group." "Life Group is what our church calls small gatherings of people who get together once a week in someone's home to either do a bible study, pray or just get together for support.
Even though we've been part of this church
for almost five years (give or take a year or two in between), we just
joined our first group in the fall. And since there are so many eager
people wanting to do a life group, our other one was bursting at the
seams...like almost 30 kids and 13 adults strong. That's a LOT of
In passing I said to my pastor, "if you ever
need anyone to.." and a few days later I got an email. "Is that offer
still on the table?" And just like that we're now running a life group,
nine people strong. Except that when I think "life group leader" I
think of someone wise, good, disciplined and not at all prone to laugh
at fart jokes. I am precisely the opposite of those things. And Hal is
even worse :)
I'm not going to fall into the trap of thinking that because I don't feel wise
or good or disciplined, that I'm not worthy of hosting a group. Those
are lies. The truth is that I'm equipped despite those perceived
shortcomings. And who knows...maybe God likes fart jokes.
few years ago we tried to get rid of our house because it's big and
expensive and we thought we should "sell all we have and give it to the
poor." So we searched for ways to do just that and God kept closing
every door and pointing us in another direction and one of those
directions was in opening this big home to others in a way that pleases
We housed a homeless man in it for a summer. Then
I hosted a women's event. Then I started a bible study and now
this...life group. And there is more to come. In doing these things
this home becomes less our home and more his and that's really the way
it should be.
Our group starts this coming Friday and I'm equal parts excited and nervous.
goal is to stand in that honest place where I show all my holes and
broken pieces, all the things that make me human and fleshy but with my
arms stretched and reaching upwards towards something bigger.
suppose the thing I'm most worried about is that I've tried (in vain)
to find a babysitter to look after all of our kids while our group is
together. The kids are all old enough to not need a babysitter while
we're close by but definitely young enough to fight to the death in a
dispute over a lego if not supervised. Lets hope that either the kids
will be able to handle themselves or we're able to find someone to keep
an eye on them!
Besides that, the only thing we can do
is prepare and then pray, pray, pray...that everyone is healthy and able
to attend, that we are able to provide a comfortable and inviting place
for everyone, that we all make long lasting connections and
relationships, that we can support and uplift each other, that God may
teach us things through both our study and through each other and
yes...that our kids can keep quiet enough to make it all possible :)